Wander Lust

What makes me so restless
Causes me to search
Looking, never finding
Continuing on this lonely path
Without ever getting rest,
Peace of mind?

I always blame others for this
Yet I know it seems from inside
Deep in my soul,
This search for something
Never minding the pain,
The pain I cause others.

I want answers,
Answers to questions not yet asked;
I want truth,
So I know how to lie;
I want knowledge
Knowledge to impress others with;

I want fame,
Yet standing in a cocoon of privacy;
I want things
Yet I never give to anyone,
Yes all this I want, and more
Yet none are what I seek;
So I will always have to keep searching.

Secrets

The words of songs run through my head
Scenes, flashes from the past
Remembering me of what I’ve lost
What I’ll never regain;
Lost forever.

I’m always this way when I’m lonely
Thinking back – about the two of us
What we used to dream of
What we will never achieve;
Not together.

True love was supposed to be forever
Yet it seems to be a force
As it only remains in me
You have already forgotten;
Our paradise.

Now I weep when I’m alone at night
Thinking on the past we used to share
Wishing I could have it back
Treasuring thoughts from the past,
Loving memories.

Maybe my secret dream will one-day be true
And you and I will be one
Sharing, regretting time lost
Going forth in life;
As one.

Captives of Freedom

High above the earth he soars
Alighting here, then there
Never still
He is free,
Can come and go when he wishes
He is King of the sky,
He is an eagle.

I too, feel akin to him
Never stopping, never still
Moving forth
Always free
Coming and going as I wish
Living out a lie
Pretending to live

Yet both of us are wrong
We are captives of freedom
We are caught by it
Longing for it,
Thirsting,
Never getting enough.

Yes mighty bird,
You and I are kin
Captives of freedom
Captives of life
Always free
Yet never!

Freedom Flight

An eagle soars the sky,
Floating high above the earth,
He looks down on tiny specks of life
He knows not what they think,
Cares not!
Cause he is free.

Yet in life all this is a lie
For even from our birth
We are living lives filled with strife
Caring only for ourselves
Never others
All wishing to be free.

But all of you I’ll defy
As I too am free
Soaring
Never captive
Yet, one – day I’ll be no more –
And who’ll remember?

Memories

Your beauty never ceases to amaze me
And I know now I never deserved your love
But I’m thankful for what we had
And everyday I thank the one above
For loving memories we share!

Chorus
Oh these wonderful memories we share
Of so many fun times we had
Times when we were totally bare
Even though we weren’t really “Bad”
Oh memories can’t you stop eating at me
And just please, please leave me be!

Do you member the times…
We promised each other we’d get wed?
That we fell asleep in each other arms?
And meant every word we said
When we said “I love you!”?

How many times didn’t I promise you the world?
Promise to forget your (and my) past?
Promise to love you forever and ever?
At least I’ve kept the last
And I promise I always will!

Repeat chorus

Are these memories a blessing or a curse?
I don’t know! But they are things I’ll
Always in my heart nurse!